Things to do

Before, I saw life as a series of prescriptively necessary steps. But now I see--You are given all this time, and all you want to do is find some way to fill it up with things to do.

The hallmark of adulthood

It may be difficult for an honest or naive person to understand, that the hallmark of the game of adulthood is impression-making,  the movement from outright sincerity toward impression-making. 

Lately, I've been understanding more and more the role of impression, or perceived-value, to human minds. It is replicated between two individuals just as it is among nations. It is as though the world runs on it. 

To get what you want, you try to create impressions in the minds of others. These invisible things guide what happens.  This is often difficult to understand. After all, why would one not display what one wants with honesty? Well, it seems the hallmark of adulthood is in learning to not show it. 

One of the rules you learn first the hard way about adulthood is this: never beg. To all unfavorable conclusions, respond "so be it" and proceed with your life. It is only after having replied thus that you will learn of the true intention of the impression the owner of these words wanted to create about themself in your mind. 

A nod to Beckett

What do you think about in those moments, when you are unwell? What goes through your mind? Usually, just songs.

And how is it that you still make plans when it lets you go for a second? It is because you know that there is never a perfect solution. Something wins, and you go on.